♥Saturday, August 6, 2011♥
My FYP is not over yet:( Ii was first told that ii need to re-VIVA then my VIVA should be at this friday by right, but then ii was told to redo my report also thus changed to next mon then due to the timetable of my supervisor and the 2nd marker, date is not confirm yet. Redo report also = printing 2 thick, binded sets of hundreds pages each. Double impact, ii dont know what ii should do, because of my FYP, ii had countless nightmares for don't know how many nights, ii burnt midnight oil for numerous nights, my tears shed for the countless setbacks ii faced during this FYP and the countless trainings ii missed during this FYP. I just pray for it to get over soon.
In addition, my relationship with MUTOU has been bumpy and rocky. Quarrels, lies, neglectfulness, unfulfilled promises, ... that fuel us to the state of no return, the stage where only one word that works, separation. This is the first and foremost relationship that Ii feel ii really give it all to make things works, but no matter how hard euu did, the other half is half-hearted, the relationship can result to the end. Even if ii truly loves him, ii know ii had to leave him, to stop the pain from excruciating. "Don't allow others to be your priority, when you are just an option".
All these things are actually what ii trying to drive off my mind and actually put an end to it , seriously.
Ii miss dancing alot alot lika seriously. Ii wish to put everything to an end so ii can work and dance like how the happy miee should be doing. However, ii still have to congratulate, Eric for getting engaged and may him and his fiancee stay blissful forever with love. Ii had so many people ii want to apologized to them and ii felt so guilty, nonetheless, he is one of the people amongst all of them. In the past relationship with him, the phone bill issue is one of the thing and ii actually went to the Changi Airport, wanting to send him off at that point of time. But due to the circumstances at that time, ii was late, the flight went off. Whenever he called from Taiwan, ii was working. Only a few calls before all these missed calls, my sense of inferiority seems to arise... ... I am sorry for hurting euu so badly, but thankfully, euu met someone better and is getting engaged soon, congratulations(:
For all the people who got hurt by miee in a way or another, Ii am sorry:(
Signing off,
MagMag^ ^)
In addition, my relationship with MUTOU has been bumpy and rocky. Quarrels, lies, neglectfulness, unfulfilled promises, ... that fuel us to the state of no return, the stage where only one word that works, separation. This is the first and foremost relationship that Ii feel ii really give it all to make things works, but no matter how hard euu did, the other half is half-hearted, the relationship can result to the end. Even if ii truly loves him, ii know ii had to leave him, to stop the pain from excruciating. "Don't allow others to be your priority, when you are just an option".
All these things are actually what ii trying to drive off my mind and actually put an end to it , seriously.
Ii miss dancing alot alot lika seriously. Ii wish to put everything to an end so ii can work and dance like how the happy miee should be doing. However, ii still have to congratulate, Eric for getting engaged and may him and his fiancee stay blissful forever with love. Ii had so many people ii want to apologized to them and ii felt so guilty, nonetheless, he is one of the people amongst all of them. In the past relationship with him, the phone bill issue is one of the thing and ii actually went to the Changi Airport, wanting to send him off at that point of time. But due to the circumstances at that time, ii was late, the flight went off. Whenever he called from Taiwan, ii was working. Only a few calls before all these missed calls, my sense of inferiority seems to arise... ... I am sorry for hurting euu so badly, but thankfully, euu met someone better and is getting engaged soon, congratulations(:
For all the people who got hurt by miee in a way or another, Ii am sorry:(
Signing off,
MagMag^ ^)
On apologetic matters and frustrating FYP:(
♥MusiQ make miee Dance Like CraZiEe:D
@ 8/06/2011 10:29:00 AM
@ 8/06/2011 10:29:00 AM
♥Tuesday, July 12, 2011♥
Saranghae♥,
MagaJoy
♥
It seems like ages when euu really want to be in that picture with miee.
It seems impossible to get back what it's like before.
It seems that the insecurities crept in more and more into miee, whilst euu dont even know or dont even understands how it feels.
It seems like in this relationship, ii am hurt so deeply than to even be feeling hairpee for being love.
Y, do ii even ii care to tear for euu while im sleeping?
Y do euu still have to appear in my brain while im doing my work?
Y, euu are always in my nightmare while ii cant sleep tight and sound?
Euu always torn miee apart for the things euu do, for the words euu said?
Have euu ever thought of how piercing those words can be that tear my heart into shred?
All we were left with, are those words that are left unspoken to the exact ending where we are landing.
And maybe, everything could end when ii totally disappear, by then hopefully, ii can walk away without faltering anymore.
♥MusiQ make miee Dance Like CraZiEe:D
@ 7/12/2011 06:10:00 PM
@ 7/12/2011 06:10:00 PM
♥♥
吵架，我想大多数的情侣都会碰到过，彼此越是喜欢，而越容易吵架，
明明知道是很小的一点事，却到最后是那么的生气，互相挂掉电话，接下来就是冷战，
其实这个道理他一直都懂，他知道这是在乎的表现，所以他对她的爱从来就没有动摇过，
如果只有他那么想，那最后肯定有一方会承受不住的，因为他也不敢确定她是不是和他想的一样。
谈恋爱的人，是不是能较好地交流，这可不一定。有时，相爱的人反倒不能交流。林黛玉最爱贾宝玉，爱得不要命，可是一见面就吵、就哭。越是相爱就越容易吵架。薛宝钗为什么不跟贾宝玉吵呢？因为她不爱他。女孩子喜欢谁就跟谁吵，这一点对男士有极大的参考价值！
一个人对另外一个人的感情如果很一般，就很客气，很有礼貌，很尊重人家跟你不同的东西，有一种求同存异的倾向；而感情越好，对对方越关心，求同的倾 向越强，达到一个峰值，也就是最高点，就接近全面求同。明知对方对自己有感情，感情强烈，就越不讲理、苛刻，有点专制了
所以今天我就详细的把吵架分析一下，希望看了的人能够看懂，把话读透！相爱的男女朋友
对方的一举一动都细细的看在眼里，会胡思乱想很正常的，所以，当你有了男（女）朋友之后
请对其他异性保持一定距离. 好好的去珍惜你身边那位会约束你，会吃你醋的人吧
不要觉得他（她）不讲道理，因为要讲理，那就做普通朋友好了，普通朋友不会约束你.
并且永远都会尽量顺着你，讲好听的给你.。
相爱的情人任何的吵闹，嫉妒，猜忌，孩子气，都是合理正常的。因为他（她）重视你，重视你们之间的一切
才会情感敏感而强烈.如果现在的你，正因为你的男（女）朋友无理取闹而生气，请拿起电话打给他（她）吧
冷战时期其实对方都想要给对方打电话，但互相也是在等着对方的电话，就是因为彼此都这么想
所以既难受又生气，甚至越想越气，最后闹的是不可开交，所以在他遇到这种情况的时候
他都是第一个说话的人，因为他知道她是那么的爱他，他也是那么的爱她，男人就应该让着自己心爱的女人
这个因为换个角度想一想你也是幸福中的人啊！
好好的珍惜你身边为了一点小事而吃醋生气的人吧，因为你拥有着这样的深深爱着你的人是——幸福！
情人心里面容不下一粒沙子，哪怕是很小很小.真正爱你的人是容不下你和异性单独聊天或单独出去的 。
为什么要珍惜男（女）朋友？因为对方很爱你，会甘心情愿为你做很多事，很多普通朋友不会帮你做的事你的男（女）朋友都会为你去做。《 打出来的男、女人嘴服，疼出来的男、女人心服。》
总之吵架的根本原因就是真爱和在乎的混合体！！这可是一份最真最真的幸福噢~
女人不吵了、不闹了、不叫了，就是真的不爱了
女人说要离开，是伤心了，是你让他失望了.
女人明知道你们之间没有未来，却情愿留在你身边做个普通朋友，不是她太贱，只是她舍不得 .
女人故意在你面前提到别的男人，不是她花心，只是想要刺激一下你，让你多在乎她一点 .
女人不主动打电话、发信息给你，不是不想你，是她不够自信你接到电话、短信时，是否也同样的想念她 .
如果女人不爱你，是不会对你发脾气的，不要报怨自己的女朋友脾气太怪，女人只对她爱的人发脾气.
女人不是不知道你还有别的女人，她选择独自伤心却不揭穿你，是害怕揭穿后给了你一个离开她的借口.
女人总是在你面前假装很开心，不是她没心没肺，成天傻乐，只是为了在你面前留下最美的样子.
男人 其实你不懂！！！
老婆为姑娘时，生活在娘家，自小没吃咱家一粒米，没喝咱家一口水，就为一个“情”字，离开自小拉扯自己成人的父母，把自己的大半生托付给咱，嫁给咱为妻，以咱的父母为父母，以咱的兄弟姐妹为兄弟姐妹，你说，咱不对她好，能对得起自己的良心么？人凭良心混世界啊！
男人碰上爱吃的，甩开腮帮子大吃一顿，撑着了，觉得不舒服，得赶紧出去溜达溜达。想一想，老婆十月怀胎是多么不易，如果没有即将做母亲的喜悦作为精神支 柱在那儿撑着，任谁给安上那么个大肚子也忍受不了。好不容易撑到一朝分娩，大命换小命，盼来个母子平安，孩子还得跟咱姓。你说，咱不对她好，能对得起她为 咱做出的付出么？人心可都是肉长的！
男人女人都会“敏感”，但男人是对事敏感，一件事觉得不对头，事后越想越不是事，生气；女人是对话敏感，一句话听着不对劲，越琢磨越觉得不对味，生气。所以，作为男人，屈尊一下，多捡老婆爱听的说，哄哄她，让她高兴，咱也高兴，何乐而不为。
世上美女多得是，结婚了，就要心无旁骛，并且，千万不能拿自己的老婆与别的女性做比较。貂禅漂亮，但你也得有吕布的英俊模样和超群武艺，如果没有，那还 不是望洋兴叹、空寻烦恼？也不是什么都不能比较，如果你同老婆一起上街，看到一位年龄、身材与老婆差不多的女士穿了一身漂亮衣服，那你一定千方百计鼓动她 也去买一套，事后你一定会有额外惊喜。
人活一世，环境不同，家教不同，遭遇不同，造就了人与人之间的不同性格和习惯，到结婚年龄的人， 性格、习惯已经形成了。古语说：江山易改，生性难移。男人结婚后，不要老想着按自己的要求和模式去试图改变妻子的缺点、不足和习惯，聪明的做法是从自身做 起，按照老婆的喜好改变自己，这样坚持下去，久而久之，她会感到与你一起生活是最好的，是最适合她的，她就会把你当成最可信赖和最可依靠的人，想让她不对 你好都难。
现代女性大多是工作女性，在外工作一天，特别在每月那特别的几天，女性比我们还疲劳，一定要做到共同承担家务。家务活繁而不 重，每天周而复始，干烦了，是一种心理疲劳。我们通常说：男女搭配，干活不累，这个办法在家中同样适用。干家务和吃东西的道理是一样的：争着不足，让着有 余。
自己的老婆自己疼，如果在这个世界上，你永远要是那个最疼老婆的人。
叫你一声老公，你就要肩负起男人的责任，要像棵大树，让你的女人小鸟般的依偎。
叫你一声老公，你要好好疼她、宠她，毕竟她为了你放弃整个天堂来追随你。
叫你一声老公，你要懂得谦和、顺从，女生都多情、敏感，所以会无理取闹只是想知道你有多么的爱她，这时你一定要懂得顺从、谦让、容忍，卟要和她吵架，卟然她真的会好伤心。
叫你一声老公，你抱她的时候一定要够用力，紧紧的把她环在你结卟结实都要显锝结实的胸前，当怀抱中的她把小脸贴在你脖子的时候，你要温柔的亲吻她的额头和脸颊，但卟要吻嘴唇！
叫你一声老公，每天早晨起来，你要噘起大嘴说‘老公亲一个，拜拜’。
叫你一声老公，当亲爱的她给你洗完臭衣服后，乖乖的说‘老婆辛苦了，来抱一下’。
叫你一声老公，她就把她的心全都给了你，你成了她的天空和世界，除了你，其余都是黑白的，只有你是彩色的。
叫你一声老公，当她流泪时，卟管是想妈妈了，生气了，受委屈了或是触景伤情了，你都要揽她入怀，任她哭个痛快，然后给她擦去脸上的泪痕，说‘别哭了，知卟知道你哭起来多丑，好了，衣服借你擦擦鼻涕。
叫你一声老公，包含了太多，两个人在一起，再多再亲的昵称都抵卟上这简简单单大众的‘老公老婆’。
叫你一声老公，甜在嘴上，暖在心里，无尽的甜蜜也会包裹着你温柔的心。
岁月的苍凉被天涯遗忘 记忆中的过往堆积枕上……
男人不需要很多的财富,但必须有养家的能力.
男人不需要能力很强，但必须有保护妻儿的本事
男人不需要很坚强，但必须要让自已的女人有安全感
男人就该象个男人,负男人该负的责任,让自已的女人光彩照人！
It seems like ages when euu really want to be in that picture with miee.
It seems impossible to get back what it's like before.
It seems that the insecurities crept in more and more into miee, whilst euu dont even know or dont even understands how it feels.
It seems like in this relationship, ii am hurt so deeply than to even be feeling hairpee for being love.
Y, do ii even ii care to tear for euu while im sleeping?
Y do euu still have to appear in my brain while im doing my work?
Y, euu are always in my nightmare while ii cant sleep tight and sound?
Euu always torn miee apart for the things euu do, for the words euu said?
Have euu ever thought of how piercing those words can be that tear my heart into shred?
All we were left with, are those words that are left unspoken to the exact ending where we are landing.
And maybe, everything could end when ii totally disappear, by then hopefully, ii can walk away without faltering anymore.
Saranghae♥,
MagaJoy
不要报怨自己的女朋友脾气太怪，女人只对她爱的人发脾气.
♥MusiQ make miee Dance Like CraZiEe:D
@ 7/12/2011 05:18:00 PM
@ 7/12/2011 05:18:00 PM
♥Monday, June 27, 2011♥
It's really a monday blues for miee, ii didn't went to school today, my head kept spinning today when ii woke up. Because it's really infuriating, ii didn't get to have a good sleep for these few weeks. I hope that the fact is (The age kept up with my body and not the vice versa). But it's very likely that ii will get my ass back to school for training and the short meeting for flashmob on 16th July. Really, ii don't think ii can cope with this semester workload, partially I'm to blamed because ii am one person who have always ignore the important things call time.
Sometimes euu ponder for suicidal thots, but euu know best that euu can't do it.
If success meant ii would have to do the things that ii don't like,
Ii will do it. Trying.
If my dream is a dancer even though Ii wish ii am a singer,
ii will chase it.
If it meant that to attain true love, ii will get hurt to the utmost,
ii will persist and fought bravely if it even meant that Ii will be the one who gets hurt
Because ii only live once to be who ii am, to reach out for the skies that barely allows miee to do so.
And for a special WOODBLOCK, who makes miee a happiee and yet sad miee.
-MagaJoy
Euu know euu cracked my heart till it shattered into pieces but each time ii have to place them bits by bits, pieces by pieces back like a jigsaw puzzle and it start all over again?
♥,
MagMag：)
Monday Blues :( ii need to be possessed by Barbarella Kate Spade!
♥MusiQ make miee Dance Like CraZiEe:D
@ 6/27/2011 03:15:00 PM
@ 6/27/2011 03:15:00 PM
♥Saturday, June 25, 2011♥
Im really very sorry to have my bloggiee diary only updated now D: But really within all these times, the difficult times, ii have many things to deal with. My studies, my CCA, my work, my family, my relationship with mu tou...etc, making miee vexed enough.
I'll be back cause the photos can't load :(
I'll be back cause the photos can't load :(
Backk!:D
♥MusiQ make miee Dance Like CraZiEe:D
@ 6/25/2011 12:13:00 AM
@ 6/25/2011 12:13:00 AM
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